Tag Archives: diet


8 Feb

In high school boys tormented me; if they saw me eating during lunch they’d offer me their own lunch as well, obviously I was still hungry being “Shamu” and all. So I stopped eating lunch, or I’d cram a granola bar in my mouth in secret as I went up the back stairs to class.

Sad thing is, I wasn’t even that chubby yet. I just had hips and a chest. But the not eating basically shut down my metabolism and as the years went on I did get chubby, very chubby. I tried every diet and exercise, and gym out there. I went to doctors specializing in weight loss, nutritionists…didn’t matter. The damage was done both to my mindset and my body.

The result is a terrible relationship with food and eating. Being tormented in high school lead me to hate food; I don’t want to eat, I don’t enjoy eating an when I do I feel shameful an guilty like I don’t have a right to be eating anything. 

Now as an adult I’m trying so hard to eat right and exercise I was getting right in my head but I’ve put a good portion of what I loss back on even though I’m still working out and eating right, it still doesn’t seem to be enough.

Working and sacrificing…and still having it not be enough is soul crushing.

I think what truly bothers me the most is people assume I’m weak or lazy when they look at me. I’m neither of those things.

So Friday I start a new round of life style changes with a diet to kick start me. 


Day 3 of “The Military Diet”

21 Nov

military-diet-logoToday has been the hardest day of the diet; my head hurts and I’m hungry, which I haven’t been on the other two days. But the diet is “over”, now it’s four days off and then back on for another three.

As for the weight loss, I lost a couple of  pounds. I think a lot of that was water weight but my clothes are definitely fitting more loosely. I’m excited to see what happens after the next three days.




5 saltine crackers
1 slice of cheddar cheese
1 small apple



1 hard boiled egg (or cooked however you like)
1 slice of toast



1 cup of tuna
1/2 banana
1 cup of vanilla ice cream