Tag Archives: weight loss


8 Feb

In high school boys tormented me; if they saw me eating during lunch they’d offer me their own lunch as well, obviously I was still hungry being “Shamu” and all. So I stopped eating lunch, or I’d cram a granola bar in my mouth in secret as I went up the back stairs to class.

Sad thing is, I wasn’t even that chubby yet. I just had hips and a chest. But the not eating basically shut down my metabolism and as the years went on I did get chubby, very chubby. I tried every diet and exercise, and gym out there. I went to doctors specializing in weight loss, nutritionists…didn’t matter. The damage was done both to my mindset and my body.

The result is a terrible relationship with food and eating. Being tormented in high school lead me to hate food; I don’t want to eat, I don’t enjoy eating an when I do I feel shameful an guilty like I don’t have a right to be eating anything. 

Now as an adult I’m trying so hard to eat right and exercise I was getting right in my head but I’ve put a good portion of what I loss back on even though I’m still working out and eating right, it still doesn’t seem to be enough.

Working and sacrificing…and still having it not be enough is soul crushing.

I think what truly bothers me the most is people assume I’m weak or lazy when they look at me. I’m neither of those things.

So Friday I start a new round of life style changes with a diet to kick start me. 



5 Jun


If I could boil this past year down to one list it would look something like this:


Boil: to reach or cause to reach the temperature at which it bubbles and turns to vapor.

Lost 30 pounds

Gained four gray hairs

Six total break downs

One and a half car accidents

11, 660 Miles home and back

Two broken FitBit One’s

One shark siting

Two blistered sunburns

137 students

One book published


13 Jan

anti-skinny-2I really wanted a Fitbit, I was using the pedometer on my iPhone 6 but if I forgot to grab my phone when I went walking somewhere, anywhere, my steps weren’t recorded and I wasn’t getting and accurate depiction of my daily activity.

Come Christmas I got a ONE. Its the kind you can clip to your pants or your bra. I really don’t like the looks of the bracelets, they’re clunky and I had heard that they were causing rashes for some people, and I have sensitive skin.

So far I am really loving the Fitbit ONE. It’s holding a charge for DAYSSSSS and it can be clipped discreetly. Now I’m getting a more realistic picture of my daily activity and it’s shameful.

00d7567e4a3e3af262efa81b1febb0e6I am essentially a freelance writer and photographer. So I spend, sometimes for several days without leaving, at home. I’m in front of a computer a LOT. So my steps aren’t meeting the recommended 10,000 steps a day; which has now become a resolution for me to meet that goal.

When I’m not home, if I’m out with friends or making a run to Wal-Mart, or where ever I may be, my steps will hit the 10,000 if not it’s very close or way over. But having a job from home, my steps just aren’t where they should be.

So in trying to improve if I’m bored I’ll just walk around rather than channel surf. If I am watching a show I RUN the stairs during commercials, if I’m on Netflix I RUN the stairs during the credits and the 30 seconds it takes the next show to load. Lame I know but I don’t have the money or interest in a gym membership, it’s the dead of winter and way too cold to go walking around outside so this is my temporary solution.

At least now with the Fitbit I’m aware of how crappy I am doing so I can improve.

226655-activitymonitors-fitbit-one-d-1Review on the Fitbit ONE:

Pedometer sync to my phone is awesome

Battery life is fantastic

But the charging thing is annoying, wish it had a plug

Sleep tracking is meh, not the greatest

The color options could be better

I love the water intake tracking

I love the challenges with friends

I LOVE the badges as rewards that’s a big motivator for me

I extra love that it is small and discreet

Day 1 Of “The Military Diet”

18 Nov

military-diet-logoOne of the things on my bucket list is to get healthy, getting healthy has been something I’ve been trying for, for a long time. And really not even that. I just wanted to be skinny; I thought being skinny would solve a lot of my problems.

I’m not what I would consider “un-healthy” per-say…I don’t have blood pressure problems, I’m not on any medication, I’m strong and active. I am however “over-weight” and really, how much over weight I am…I have no idea.

There isn’t an exceptionally reliable source for appropriate weight, I’ve heard weight watchers has the most realistic. Which considering doctors offices, for my gender and height, think I need to weigh 115.

One-hundred and fifteen pounds.  Does that not sound outrageous to you? A mid twenties woman at one-hundred and fifteen pounds would be skeletal. What about hips and breasts? And I know that heavy, or fat people say this a lot “I have big bones,” but I literally have big bones; my wrist is very wide I can never buy off the shelf bracelets because my wrist is too large and that’s bone, not fat.

Anyway, I’ll stop my rant now and get back to the point. While I think I am attractive and so do other people, I’ve always wanted to be slimmer so I would fit in more easily, with less initial judgment. I’ve tried gyms, every diet under the sun, nutritionist, diet pills, diet bars, diet drinks, not eating all together…so here I am trying another diet.

My problem with everything else I have tried is its too complicated, and takes too long. So when I found the military diet on Pinterest I did a little research and decided to give it a try.

This diet is only three days, I can do anything for three days. It came with a very simple clear layout of each meal for those days, the food is normal food we already had in the house, and it also came with a shopping list; a short inexpensive shopping list.

So today was day one of the diet and it went well, the only gross thing I had to eat was tuna on bread, nothing else like mayo. But other than that today went fine, in fact there was too much food for dinner I couldn’t finish my apple or ice cream.

Check out the diet for yourself here.

DAY 1:



1/2 Grapefruit
1 Slice of Toast
2 Tablespoons of Peanut Butter
1 cup Coffee or Tea (with caffeine)



1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Slice of Toast
1 cup Coffee or Tea (with caffeine)



3 ounces of any type of meat
1 cup of green beans
1/2 banana
1 small apple
1 cup of vanilla ice cream